day #69

spent last weekend in a screenwriting workshop.

this is a passion i've put off for a while.

i've dabbled here & there,

but i wouldn't allow myself to dive in.

with bob's encouragement, i did it.

it was a huge time & $ commitment,

but it was worth it.

i stretched.

i was uncomfortable.

i was creative.

and now there is no turning back.

to have that kind of opportunity & not do anything with it is ungrateful & unwise.

this year, passion is about seeking out deferred opportunities & acting upon them.

right now, i'm just feeling out a script concept,

but that won't be where it ends.

please hold me to that. ;)

days #10 & #11

i'm working on a list of passion-blockers.

as i write each one down, i feel a twinge of guilt at how i've let it get to me in the past.

fatigue

denial of ability/passion

fear

resistance

others' reactions

unrealistic standards

distraction

formalization

and so on...

my internal conflict comes from my belief that Jesus,

in all His wisdom & love,

has given us all unique passion in each of our lives.

however, we busy ourselves & bury the passion,

missing a key & pivotal opportunity in our lives to experience that personal gift!

as i look over this emerging list of passion-blockers, my guilt is that i've let these take over when i could be letting passion into the mix.

but it doesn't have to end there.

guilt motivates; shame incapacitates.

i won't let this turn to shame.

i'll let the guilt motivate me to bust down some of those passion-blockers.

the best antidote to passion-blockers is action.

simply making movement rather than letting them paralyze reduces much of their power.

today, when a passion-blocker shows up on the scene,

i'm starting a lively argument against it & taking action.

it's better than sitting still & feeling guilty forever.